I've never felt like that before but these past 3 weeks or so, I'm just not excited to go to the barn and ride. I don't hate it but it feels more like a chore than something fun and exciting that I wanna do. Just came back from my lesson and I don't feel that fulfillment and joy I usually feel. The lesson was meh and I guess I'm not necessarily looking forward to the next lesson. I used to feel disappointed when the lesson was finished and now I constantly look at the clock and can't wait till it's over. Why why why do I feel that way? I hate it. I wanna go back to feeling excited each time and counting the hours till my next lesson. I really hope it's not permanent. I can't stand the thought of not loving this anymore. Has anyone felt that way before? Is it just a phase that will be over soon? I don't know why but it makes me feel really sad.