I'm sooo frustrated that I literally cried today during the lesson. I ride once a week, sometimes twice and every once in a while we do sitting trot without stirrups. That's my biggest nightmare.

I ride a horse that is known to have a rough trot and a smooth canter. Every time I drop the stirrups and attempt to trot, I fight for my life. I go off balance and about to fall from one side. Then if the horse doesn't stop, I do because I don't want to fall off which is absolutely what's gonna happen if I keep going.

It's just frustrating. I just cannot do it to save my life! No matter how many times I try it, I don't get better and I can't balance. Everybody does it so well and then it's me, fighting for my life and struggling to stay in the saddle. I'm so frustrated and disappointed in myself. It makes me feel like I suck at riding and will never improve.

For context, I've been riding for 8 months. I know I'm very much a beginner still, but shouldn't I be able to do that by now (not perfectly but at least to be able to stay in the saddle)? I just don't know what to do anymore. I've tried everything I've been told or read but I suppose I just don't get it. Do you guys know any exercises I could try to maybe, just maybe help me even a little? I'm desperate. 😥