They had me off my meds for a week. It felt like someone lifted a medicated fog off my brain and I was back to my old self. Did sleep deprivation for almost 72 hours straight. If I had xcopri I’d be asleep within the hour. They put me in back on my meds yesterday and doubled up the dose of xcopri to get it back in my system before they get a baseline SISCOM test. I felt myself struggling with words and hardly able to stay awake almost immediately. Fog came back over my brain.

I just sort of needed to get some feelings out when I realized I got myself back for a little bit even if it was in a hospital bed. I wasn’t always tired. I didn’t struggle for words or make people constantly repeat themselves. Epilepsy really fucking sucks.