I've got a gooning story to tell..

So I've been edging for days. Just watching porn, a light rubbing, a quick finger, then abstaining completely again.. I've gooned myself to the point of watching porn in public and not really caring about who sees. Browsing shops, I'm taking quick glances at reddit and just feeling my pussy pulsating and leaking in my panties.

Now, I've gotta go to the grocery store. I'm thinking this is the last stop before heading home so I'm just wandering around, sneakily looking at some more porn, when I see the cucumbers. Not those long skinny ones. The short FAT cucumbers. And my mind just goes blank. I need one inside me. Immediately. I buy one, with some other innocuous stuff, feeling paranoid like the cashier knows I'm gooning or something.

So I've got my cucumber, and I'm physically shaking thinking about it. My heart is racing. I drive quickly to the closest park, and find a nice wee wooden bench.. secluded, but still very open. There's people walking around, some workmen doing garden work, I can hear them all talking and hear chainsaws in the background. I'm even more excited at the thought of someone maybe catching me fucking myself with this cucumber.

Now I've sat down, set up one of my favorite porn videos, sound and all, and just watched it for a minute or 2.. no touching. Just leaking, and tingling. I get out a little bullet vibrator. On its lowest setting, I start rubbing my needy, pulsing clit through my underwear. FUCK. It feels so good. I rub it for 5 seconds, and stop for 5, rub for 5, stop for 5.. its getting too much and my panties are already soaked. It's time.

I take the cucumber out of my bag and really look at it. Shit. I've chosen a really thick cucumber, will it fit??? I slide it down into my pants and slap it against my clit a couple of times.. I'm ready. I need it now. I stand up, pull my pants down a bit, and start with the cucumber at the entrance of my wet pussy.. I'm shaking with excitement again. I start sort of pushing and twisting it at the same time, trying to slide it in.. it's not going yet, I can only get in the tip. I keep pushing and twisting, begging for it to enter me, then all of a sudden about an inch sinks into me.. I gasped. It's so good to be filled up. I need the rest. I start slowly fucking myself with it, sinking it further and further into my creamy, desperate hole.. until its almost the whole way in.

Now I'm going hard, just fucking myself dumb with it. I can hear the wet sounds of it pounding into me, and it's turning me on even more as I moan quietly to myself. It's sliding in and out like it's nothing now its covered in my pussy juices. I take it all the way out to see if it's got cream on it.. it does. Which turns me on even more. I lick some of the cream off to get a taste of myself, sit down, lean back, and slide it all the way back in.

This time I'm sitting straddled the bench, with the cucumber inside me, stretching out my hole.. and I'm grinding down on it now. I can hear some people walking past through the trees, I can hear the moaning from my porn, I'm watching it intently, and I have never been more turned on.

I lick my fingers and start rubbing away at my clit while I grind on the cucumber. I turn the porn up a bit louder, feeling even more risk that people will hear, and I start feeling my orgasm building.

Now, I'm not trying to cum, I just wanna keep edging.. but I do like to push my limits, so here I am grinding, rubbing, watching porn in public and all of a sudden I felt it. Like I was tipping over the edge. I stopped rubbing immediately, knowing I've pushed it too far. I'm not even touching my clit, I've stopped grinding altogether, and somehow, just from the contractions of my pussy and the light feeling of my underwear brushing against my throbbing clit, I CUM. And oh. My. God. Did I cum. I felt it through my whole body. I felt my pussy tense around the cucumber. I quickly reach down and gently flick my clit a few times to keep the feeling going longer.

My panties are sopping, it almost leaking through my pants. And now I'm thinking well, if I've cum already I may as well make the most of it. I get out a clit sucking toy from my bag, and I'm still so high from cumming once that it's not gonna take long to cum again. I slip it into my pants and over my clit, I turn it up to almost max.. I just wanna be lost in it now. I want to fucking GOON. I start to get close again, I feel the wave through my whole body and I sort of convulse and writhe around a bit now as I'm reaching orgasm.. and then it happens again. I'm still straddled the seat and I'm just cumming and cumming and cumming. I have lost all awareness of my surroundings, I'm breathing heavy, I'm moaning, I don't give a fuck if someone hears me.

I've been playing with myself for almost half an hour now.. Then the clit sucker starts feeling too much. My clit is aching and so sensitive. I NEED to stop. I take it out and it's covered in creamy cum too. I wipe it and clean up a bit.. I look down into my pants, I'm proud of myself. The cucumber is still inside me, and I love knowing that I can get myself wet enough to fuck something so thick. I stand up and it glides right out of me into my underwear.. I reach down with one hand to feel how much it's stretched me, I'm gaping and I love it. I rub the cucumber up against my pussy, spreading my lips over it like a pussy job. My clit is tender, but it still feels so good.. I think about putting it back inside me, and fucking myself a bit more. I stop myself again. I can't do this all day. I have stuff to do. I take the cucumber out of my pants, and I look around. Hmm.. should I take it home? I think not, I want it to be my naughty secret. I slip it under a bush behind the bench.

I get up, and go to finish watching the video I put on as i walk back to my car.. its so hot, I don't want to cut it short, my pussy is pulsing still. As I stand up, my legs go weak, my vision is blurry, and i feel dizzy. I just about fall over. Shit. I've cum myself silly, literally./ I stand up for a few seconds and start to walk slowly and carefully back. I feel amazing, walking past all these people, knowing I've just got away with something depraved right in front of them.

I get to the car and I start to think.. post nut clarity is setting in. Is this good for me? Should I really be this addicted to watching porn and getting myself off? I drive home, and think today is the day I stop. I'm gonna delete my account, I'm gonna stop watching porn. I'm done.

Well this is just over a day later, I've been rubbing my (still very needy) little clit. I've made a new nsfw reddit. I've been watching porn. And I'm regretting deleting all the content I spent so long collecting. But this is an opportunity for me to rebuild again, and I can't wait.

What can I say 🤷‍♀️ I'm a fucking goon.