I will admit when my husband first wanted me to get let myself become obsessed with masturbating and get loose, I was not on board whatsoever. I grew up through high school and college with the thought that tight was preferred and looseness made you a slut. Barely any of my friends ever masturbated, and if they did it was maybe once a month?

When we were in college, we were long distance and would have phone sex. My bf told me he's like me to masturbate constantly. So I did. Even when we weren't on the phone I would masturbate. I started collecting toys and became obsessed. Although I was embarrassed, I loved it so much I couldn't stop. After a few years of running through Hitachis and smaller dildos my boyfriend encouraged me to use larger ones. And now after a few years of using larger toys at a slow rate and my now husband encouraging how often I masturbate, I have realized not only are my orgasms so much stronger with larger objects and toys, but our sex life is all around better.

The shame is no longer there and has now been replaced with excitement. I want to make my lips as messy as possible for my husband and want to get as loose as possible for us as well. I am truly truly obsessed with masturbating myself.