So yhea I've never thought sth like this would happen to me and I would write this but I just can't help myself 😖🙈

I'm feeling so deeply awkward and guilty to confess this but I've never wanted to get edged and have sex in my entire life before 🙈

don't even know if it's bc of this sub or what are these feelings exactly but I'm not just kinda really really horny most of the time but also really interested in sex and the various possibilities and types of edging and stuff and want to learn more about it 🙈

and for the first time I'm so horny and curious that it's stronger than being shy and feeling awkward about it so I really want to make sth irl like getting edged by a girl and really want to have sex even with different girls and somehow feeling like I really want sleeping around or sth 😖🙈

So I'm kinda feeling like I want to catch up what I missed for such a long time but I'm also feeling so deeply embarrased and guilty about these thoughts bc I never wanted to be like this and just sleep with different girls for catching up what I missed or sth!! 🙈🙈

and I don't have anyone to talk about it and tbh I don't know what I really would do if it's really became serious 🙈🙈

it's just kinda really hard to deal with these strong feelings 😫🙈

and I'm feeling like a teenager without any experience who is really curious and wanna have sex and make new experiences but is also like a little shy girl who needs a lot of praise and encouragement to do so and not feeling guilty about it 😖🙈

I think I can somehow understand now what girls meaning with the feelings of ovulation and stuff but I don't really know of course as it's just new for me 😔🙈

maybe someone can relate to this or encourage me or sth....

Thank you for reading anyway ☺️