Sometimes when I'm a bit exhausted from being horny literally 24/7 or right after a ruin I think about taking a break from denial and edging all together, going back to masturbating like a normal person, short, sweet and with an orgasm at the end. Then someone says something lewd to me or I see porn when I open reddit just to reply to a message, and the burning tingling sensation starts to grow until it's irresistable and my legs are spread across my table again and I'm rubbing more braincells away. Rubbing all those thoughts about cumming, thoughts about a normal life away. Today it's been 5 months since my last orgasm, I don't even remember what my last release was like. It's way too hot of a streak to give up, the thought of never cumming again excites me like nothing else. I crave to trap myself even further, make sure that I'm unable to escape. This is where I belong.