i’ve been slowly finding a balance with myself for the past couple of months in terms of being productive and still taking time to melt my brain. after doing some housework im laying in bed now lightly petting my growing cock and slowly getting high. and it hit me: maybe i can have it all. maybe i can lock in and truly brainwash myself for the better.

i like setting ground rules for myself to try and adhere to; that way, it’s easier to enjoy myself while being responsible. the rules can change or vary, but the most important thing above all is horny/high me doesn’t make big decisions that’ll impact sober me. if it’s really that important ill revisit whatever the thought is when im cleaeheaded. and that means that i can’t be gooning my dick and suddenly decide i want to cum.

it is now a good 30min later and i am baked as hell my dick wet with melted coconut oil. my girl is laying in bed next to me literally paying me no mind while i fondle my IQ points away. the more i think about it the faster i touch myself. this is amazing. i’m amazing. hot hard slick penis glistening.

sorry i lost my train of thought from the beginning of the post but my point is (was?) that i can let go. i can let myself relax and fully immerse myself in pleasure. i can become porn embodiment. because i know that when the time comes, i’ll be able to come back. i trust myself. ♥️

damn im so high this post is all over the place lol 2025 abt to be the year of narcissism for me 💁