It feels soo awkward to confess and I'm feeling kinda guilty about it but I'm really horny and kinda needy rn 🙈

There are so many horny stories on this sub and it makes me feel craving the same experiences so so bad and I really really want it but at the same time I'm still feeling timid and clueless....

I just wanna lay down and edge and goon till I can't take it anymore and pass out 😵🙈

it's that bad and I really don't know what happened to me but I even wanna get tied up and edged and choked 😖🙈

and fucked so hard I cry 🙈🙈 As an explanation: I just saw that on a vid where a woman was fingered really hard and cried afterwards and it looked soo hot but also kinda cruel to me. but somehow I really wanna make this experience too now and it made me kinda jealous 🙈

but these thoughts and feelings are all really new and they're also feeling somehow really false to me....

so I'm feeling kinda really helpless and lost rn 🙈 but also somehow really jealous....

I also wanna experience deep pleasure and feel good about it but at the same time I don't know how to cope with these ambivalent feelings 😖🙈

So are this feelings normal in general and especially for a guy?

Can a guy get edged that hard too?

And even fucked and cum that hard he cries?

Is it weird to think about things like that?

I know these questions sounds really innocent and maybe kinda funny but I AM really innocent and inexperienced!!

and it's hard enough to get along with it and to handle these ambivalent feelings 😔

so pls don't judge me 🙈

maybe someone can help me or sth