Getting so desperate to finally cum my brains out

I decided to go on with the NNN streak. It has been over a month now of no orgasm. For over two weeks I've been touch depriving my cock almost every day. Watching porn, watching cumshot after cumshot, orgasm after orgasm. First for over an hour without touching. My balls start to ache. My shaft starts to burn. I get so fucking desperate for touch I lose my mind. Lately I've been struggling to keep my hands off my dick when it's not time yet, so I tie my hands to my chair with two belts. I love the feeling of of burning shaft throbbing in my pants and my mind going nuts. Feeling wave after wave of pleasure through my sensitive full balls and burning shaft.

Eventually I can't help but to touch a bit. After an hour the no touching effects starts to dwindle. But I love the feel of a desperate cock so fucking much. I've been rubbing my cock in little bursts through my pants spiking in pleasure (in a controllable way so I don't actually cum). Still not a single touch skin to skin. I can go like this for hours.

Playing games with friends on one screen, playing a beautiful agony or edge video on the other. Constantly having to mute myself to not have them hear me breathing or moaning. I'm about to hit 5 hours. Basically since I got home from work, with a little break during dinner (going mental). I can feel my boxers being an absolute mess of precum. Feeling the head of my dick slosh around in it and my balls aching for release.

The last week I keep having sex dreams. One after the other. Either a denied wet dream (waking up in time) or a full one every night, releasing a MASSIVE load. It fucks with my sleep but I love it so much. But it makes me so desperate to cum. So desperate to have the most mind melting orgasm of my life... TBH I'm a bit nervous now to even cum. Even the dreams feel fucking good I can't imagine what it would feel like if I bring myself to orgasm. But I won't. I refuse. I've promised myself to give my load to another person, some day. I don't care if it takes a week or a year. I will keep denying myself until then. Keep getting more and more desperate. Keep getting more and more needy. Keep having to wash my sheets more and more 😅