For the past few weeks I have been touch depriving my cock while watching porn. I adore the burning desperate sensation of my shaft when I watch porn without touching. Yesterday I noticed I lost most sensitivity. That's fine, could happen. I went to bed, woke up with a massive wet dream. I had two sex dreams before (since my last night relief), but I woke up before I came. I knew I was denying myself, so even in my dream I did not want to cum. My mind took my body over.

This time was different. After not releasing twice when my body wanted to, my boxers were completely soaked in sticky cum this time, still partly on the inside of my boxers. I reached down to check and heard my fingers squishing the cum. It was so much more than my usual wet dreams.

On one hand it was great, on the other hand... my balls lost a lot of cum then. They were so much smaller than yesterday. So I have to rebuild, but I don't have the patience xD

I wasn't as sensitive today but man was I horny from that dream and orgasm. I haven't brought myself to orgasm in a month. I spent the entire day edging. Watching hours of porn, rubbing my pants (still trying to deprive my actual shaft of touch). I leaked so much, I love it. I didn't realize I gave myself blue balls from doing it but honestly I love the feel.

The squishy bouncy balls that are constantly begging for some attention while doing some work. Gently massaging them feels so amazing. Feels like they are so full again...

Tomorrow I won't watch porn. I've disabled NSFW content (besides for writing this post) just in case. No watching porn, no touching. I get so delirious when my shaft burns from anticipation and arousal. God I want that feeling again. I'll be trying to get myself as sensitive as possible again so my cock can continue to beg and beg and beg 🥵