Still getting used to being wanted. I have a partner that I love very much, but for some reason have always enjoyed the idea of being wanted by others. Maybe it’s just the childhood trauma, maybe it’s because I work hard in the gym and sometimes have a hard time seeing the fruits of my labors, with being drooled over giving me the validation I’m doing something right. Not sure, but what I do know is when I get compliment or am being flirted with, I imagine the other person wanting to jump me and take me for a spin. The cock hardening idea being enough to cause a wet spot to form in my underwear. What makes it more unbearable is I want to stroke and give it affection, but in public find it difficult. I tense up and feel the body flex, sometimes to see if the person paying the compliments notice. I tend to notice that sometimes when talking to others, I tend to see their eyes briefly look down towards my chest (which I’ve been told is big and juicy. Thank you chest days!) and mid section. Makes me think they have other things on mind. Also raises the question, what would they do if it was just us two? No need to worry from prying eyes….do they even know they’re doing it? Looking me up and down and see how the muscles dance as I talk and am animated in our conversation. I always leave the convo wanting to indulge, just grip it and rip it. See if they lend a hand and help me reach satisfaction….fuuuck the underwear is just getting tight thinking about it 😤