I hated anal before denial. Hated it. I tried it a few times, decided it wasn't for me, left the buttplugs to get dusty in the drawer.

Yesterday, I was horny and desperate enough that I wanted to wear one while I worked. "Just an hour or so," I told myself, having no expectations of any particular enjoyment. Just wanting to feel horny and aware of it as I worked, to feel like I'm training myself to better pleasure others.

I ended up taking off the afternoon to fuck my ass for hours, going up three plug sizes. I sat through a meeting with an eight inch dildo in my ass, spasming and throbbing around it as my cunt leaked.

Turns out, nothing makes my cunt drip harder than being ignored. Nothing makes my clit ache and throb like being passed over in favor of my tightest hole. Every clench and ache in my ass makes me so much wetter, so much needier. Anal feels right for me, my pussy does not deserve to be pleasured. I don't want to edge without something in my ass, ever.

I'm going to spend today plugged at a minimum, fucking my ass whenever possible. I want so badly to discover I can cum from anal, only to deny those orgasms too. Denial is what brought me here, and denied I will remain.

Cumming is temporary, horny is forever