I've successfully completed NNN two times without really edging or watching porn, just straight up no porn and no fap. But this year is different. I've been watching porn and edging every chance I get and it is making me lose my mind.

I can't even think straight let alone work properly. Several times a day I catch myself just throbbing, aching and so fucking hard just humping the air while Iam trying to work in the office. Thank God I can have a few days of home office a week. Its basically 0 work done while working from home and I just fully let myself go feral. Sometimes watching porn, pumping my cock, humping everything I can. Other time I go online and jerk off on cam with other people. I think Iam straight but I always end up edging with other guys on cams or on snap because its so much easier than finding girls.

I don't even know what I wanted to write about when I started so Iam just rambling now I guess.