Oh Reddit forgive me for I have sinned. I had a ruin on the 9th of November. To be fair I had always planned to ruin then but initial plan of making myself squirt on 9th November fell through, I managed to get a ruin but as soon as I crossed that line I lost interest in the thought of me masturbating so much that I make myself squirt. I think I may allow myself to do so when I have all of the things prepared- plenty of towels etc etc etc. I had towels but I think I need somebody else with me to motivate me.

I have since been edging daily since then and then yesterday somebody recommended I go on a no touch until Friday whilst I "repent" for having a ruin. My ass and tits is the only thing that I can play with and fuck how I want to play with them right now. I ordered two new dildo's and plenty of lube for my ass both of which should be arriving tomorrow evening, I have work tomorrow evening and wonder if I should put a plug in my ass before making my way there.

I don't really know if this is possible but I looked at my pussy earlier and apart from it being super wet it was great to see it really puffy- but I haven't touched it yet. Here's to hoping it stays Puffy until Friday, I'm so eager to feel it, Understand how sensitive it is. I wonder if I'll end up creating a thick creamy grool, ooohhh I guess it's not that popular saying that to be honest.