it's been a few days since i finally ended my denial streak, and i noticed a few things i think the broader people of edgingtalk would enjoy.

the most notable one is : i'm always so fucking horny. i'm kinda left unsatisfied a lot of the time. i can't dedicate myself to doing more denial for another while because i have important life things coming up that i need to focus on ( a.k.a i hate finals ), so i can't exactly indulge in doing that unfortunately. which is a shame, because clearly orgasms aren't doing the work, and i need to edge and deny myself more. i can't wait to have the time.

so far, the plan is for me to start no touch a week or two before i'm free, likely during the exams. i'll be too busy to really be thinking about it, but maybe the prospect of what's coming ahead of me will make things even better. and then the second i'm out of my exams? it's denial until i have to leave for the winter holidays. i'm hoping it's long enough. depending on how this exam period goes, the edging might start a little bit earlier. Ç

but yeah.. all i've been thinking about is how badly i wanna go back to edging, and how i have to behave myself and be a responsible human and. exist and try not to be horny too much. lame if you ask me.

Another aspect of edging is the body positivity it brings me. i have a complex body image, and i have to say that edging a lot has made me feel so much better about my own body. it's self-care in a way. and is worth it just for that.

maybe i should edge just for today. i already came after waking up, but i don't know. maybe it will help the craving :)