I used to watch porn and edge for a couple hours before cumming because I had gotten pretty bad blue balls a few times in my teens and was scared of having it again. But it sucked because I wanted to edge for longer and the pain was keeping me away. But at some point I realized - having blue balls isn't bad for me. So the pain is just mental. If I could ignore the pain, I could edge more.

I started edging for longer and longer, slowly easing into blue balls. At first I would feel the onset of the ache and cum immediately, hoping the lingering pain wouldn't be too bad. I got better over time at understanding how far I could go without having the pain go over a certain amount. I kept pushing the boundaries, edging a little longer each week, bearing just a little more pain.

And at some point, something changed in how I conceived of the pain. I didn't just put up with the blue ball ache. I started to seek the blue ball ache. I started to get excited at the thought of having my balls grow so heavy with semen that they hurt. Instead of edging despite the ache, I edged for the ache.

My edging sessions got longer and longer until at some point, I decided I would just stop cumming at the end of them if I could help it. So I would edge and leak, edge and leak, oozing out a bucket of precum - and then I would just stop and put my dick away. That way, I kept the ache for longer in my heavy, swollen balls.

Now I edge without cumming for hours a day, every day, for weeks, even months at a time when I'm being dedicated. I even take the "holy grail" set of supplements to increase semen production, not so I can cum more, but rather, so I can fill my balls faster and keep them more swollen around the clock. For probably a solid half of the days in a year, I'll have blue balls at some point in the day. Sadly, my body seems to have gotten better at getting rid of the ache as I've gotten more experienced at edging, so my blue balls usually only last a few hours after I stop an edging session.

But even when they're not fully aching, the combination of long term denial, constant edging, and cum-boost supplements means that basically 24/7/365 my balls are huge and heavy with seed, and I have this constant, distracting pressure between my legs reminding me of hours upon hours of filthy, degenerate porn I gooned to the night before - and making me excited for the hours upon hours of filthy, degenerate porn I'll goon to again in the night ahead. My balls are so big all the time that they're tight against the crotch of my pants and they shift with every step I take, giving me an ever-present memento of my chronic masturbation habit.

Constantly gooning and almost never cumming means I'm also aroused at the slightest breeze, which has turned me into a massive pervert in real life, though I think I keep it hidden pretty well. But if you're a woman, there's a chance that I've leered at you when you weren't looking. If you've walked ahead of me, I've probably looked at your ass and fantasized about jerking off to the sight of you getting anally railed. If you've bent down to pick something up, I've probably snuck a peak down your shirt and pictured your tits plastered in cum after a blowbang. And when I see the slightest hint of something sexual in public - a sheer top wrapped around some big juicy breasts, a skirt that's just a little too short that might give a glimpse of panties when sitting down, a pair of strappy heels that shows off painted toes and a high arch - I can literally feel my balls get a little tighter. Sometimes I can even feel a drop of precum work its way up and ooze out of the tip of my dick while it's still in my pants. It feels as good as it sounds.

I write this because I've seen a lot of posts in this subreddit from guys lamenting their blue balls, saying that it's the only problem with edging, and seeking advice on how to reduce the pain. My two cents? Lean into it. Embrace it. Edge more, cum less, and learn to love your swollen, achy blue balls. You might find a whole new world of pleasure.