last night, i spent a good part of the evening trying to get my toy to work with buttplug.io’s rumble thing so i could have my toy react to my game but it was unfortunately not working. so i lost some time edging there.. but i really really wanted to figure out how to make it work. the issue? dogshit bluetooth range of my toy, and no.. alternate setups to have the toy closer to where it needs to be to keep connection, without sacrificing the comfort i’d want in an edge/gaming session. i will get a better alternative of the same toy eventually!

so what i ended up doing was follow prompts on jrk-it again, and i managed to edge a few times, and i kinda got really insane horny. i did surprisingly good! i didn’t have to pause too often, and i managed to keep up even when i got a little too close for comfort. i’d like to think my endurance and tolerance are improving.

It’s almost a shame that today is the day that I’m free. it’s been a ride, reddit! i’d love to keep it going for longer but it is a fairly time demanding thing for me to deny myself and keep myself edged when this is something i impose on myself. my hope for the future is maybe that i’ll get comfortable enough with someone to stay denied for them and commit to it for longer. i found that the kind people of reddit made the denial a lot more fun. as much as nsfw reddit can be rancid, there’s some true gems.

but yes! maybe next time i’ll go longer, i just know that for now, i’ve done my two weeks and i need some freedom / normal not horny human time. BOOOOO!!

i rewarded myself with a ruin last night since it was technically already sunday, but i’m keeping the full real orgasm for today and i’m really hyped! i plan on trying to ruin again, multiple times if i’m able, before my well deserved, full orgasm. i’ll likely be posting again once that is done, to update y’all on some final thoughts.

the ruin was soo frustrating, because i wanted to keep going after but my clit was way too sensitive. not as bad as full orgasm, but definitely Very Sensitive. And most importantly, unsatisfying. this is pretty much exactly what i wanted and i just know it’ll be added to the roster for my next long term denial sessions.