So like I have a real addiction but I like it and would love to talk more to other lady's with the same addiction. It's a problem when I want it to be and other times it's a way to push myself as a reward. I feel like a slut when I allow it to take over and use me. It's so dirty and becomes fuel in a way to become more dirty. Waking me up at night, or not allowing me to even go to sleep when I need to because my pussy is so needy.

Other times I tell myself ok if I do good on this test then I'll have a porn session. If I get these things done for my mom then I'll feed myself porn. I will end up accomplishing things I need to do just for porn. If I let it consume me ill skip doctors appointments, recently I just didn't go get my friend from the airport because I didn't want to stop. Porn is literally controlling my life like a drug. Guys think it's so hot but I tell them all the time it's not what you think. I've lost 2 boyfriends because I was more into gooning and porn then fucking them. Having a boyfriend that's not a addict or thinks they can fuck it out of you becomes annoying after while.

I love talking to people (mainly females) that can relate. Ik its not many of us but it's so fun and exciting. One day I want to get married and have my own family but idk what that would look like or how I could balance a family like with porn or if I would ever get that far where I would want to take a break from edging so much. Or even have a gf or married to a woman that would actually understand me. I currently live at home with my mom and even that's frustrating to be an adult but can't be openly free about my masturbating and love for porn.

I'm tired of hiding my relationship with porn and my pussy. Reddit is the only place to open up about how fucked I am or how nasty I can get. I love people knowing how much I love porn and really want other women to let me know that they are the same.