i've officially been awake for more than 24h, and i spent most of that time rubbing my clit on and off. The sleep deprivation is starting to hit, so i *am* hitting the end of my time awake, and i am starting to wind down a little, but i do plan on going for a bit longer before i call it quits. it just makes more sense to keep rubbing until it's a reasonable hour for me to go to sleep and hopefully restore some sense into my sleep schedule despite all the.. busy nights i've had :p. so.. if i'm having to push back my sleep some more for scheduling reasons, i might as well bank on my own malleable sleepy mind to edge even more until it's time for bed!

i stopped rubbing my clit about 20 minutes ago for this break, my toy needed to be charged, but i still feel my clit throbbing for attention and i'm currently debating what else to do to my clit now that my hands just won't do the job. if i use my toy, the vibrations go "deep" enough in my clit to still make me feel good, but the exterior of it is a liiittle bit less sensitive to touch, so it doesn't feel as brain-melting good as it could. i was thinking of rubbing my clit with a really thin layer of tiger balm for extra spice, though considering how long i've been at this, i'll likely pick one of the more gentle options.

i get really frustrated when i get to the edge now. the edge is what feels best, but it also annoys me because i'm starting to realise that cumming is a waste of my time, and that rubbing away at my clit by whatever means possible is what is best for it <3 i think week 2 will be slightly smoother sailing in terms of not saying fuck it and cumming. the first week is typically the hardest.

(i do want to close off this message with a little psa : gooning is fun, but don't put your health at risk! i am stupid horny, and sleep deprived, but all of this is within like. i have the time and space for stupid edging decisions right now. edge yourself stupid, but don't forget to take care of your body's base needs! if you're still reading this, go drink some water <3)