hello hello!
tomorrow, it'll be a week since i started this whole denial thing :) it hasn't always gone according to plan, but i am still going strong! somehow!

I started doing something today that i never normally do : i started my day by rubbing my clit. i normally don't do this so i can still go through my day somewhat unimpeded, but the horny brainworms have taken over so much that i kinda can't... help myself lol. i thought all afternoon about how i couldn't wait to be home to touch myself. I'm making this post preemptively knowing i'll get so lost into it that i'm probably going to forget to make this.

my clit is still feeling a little numb from how much i've been rubbing it, so i might try to do something else different today. i'm not sure what quite yet.. but i know i'm gonna come back to my clit eventually. who's to say :p but I'm really starting to settle in into denial. I really think the first few days are the hardest, until your mind fully blanks and you really surrender to the horny brain fog. it's a great time. you should do it.

one thing i came to appreciate is how easy it is to get to the edge. I get there so quick, and i have to stop a lot because it's so easy for me to go over the edge. so i can't rub as much as i want, and that is frustrating. i think that ultimately it helps keep me denied.

now the question is, once i reach my goal, do you think i'm gonna want to stop?