I've been edging for 4 hours tonight and as I sink deeper I've come to a realization. I need to be tied up so that I can't escape or even move, and used like a toy by some insatiable goonnette. I want her to use me in whatever way she needs to pleasure herself, with no regard for my pain or pleasure at all. If she edges me until I'm nothing more than a begging mess to satisfy her wants, I need her to ignore all begging for mercy and continue fulfilling her needs. If she has to use me like a dildo for hours and hours to edge herself even though I've cum 2, 5, or 10 times, I don't want her to even consider stopping until she's satisfied her every whim and desire. My pain and discomfort should be entirely irrelevant to her path to goon bliss. If I orgasm, it's her toy just throbbing to increase her pleasure. If I pass out, her toy's batteries just need to recharge. I don't want to be treated like a person. I don't want to be degraded or encouraged, I want to be treated like I'm not even there at all. I'm tired of being in control, I need someone to take and take from me until there's nothing left to take.