And like any high, I've developed a tolerance. I am driven to kinkier and kinkier porn. I am making more excuses to myself to hop onto my bed and edge for...maybe just 30 minutes. Hours later and I realized I needed to go to sleep hours ago, but I love the feeling of edging so much.

Today I bought some sort of supplement, which I'm 60% sure is a scam, that is supposed to throw my libido into overdrive. Like it's not already there. I just want more. I want to know what it feels like to masturbate with a vagina. I want to Domme helpless goonettes. I want to be Dommed as a helpless gooner. I want to know what goes through people's minds when they chase that rush by buying the next toy, subscribing to a porn website, messaging people on reddit that you know are scammers, just for that little hit of dopamine that you get when it says you have a new message.

Anyway, I guess to get anywhere in life, we have to take risks if we want to explore and expand our experiences.

Keep it up, everyone- I hope that you all find the right place on the right edge that's perfect for you. You're worth it.