I'm broken.

My girlfriend wants me needy and desperate for her so she allows me to cum when I'm with her on the weekends.

She allows me to stroke as much as I want during the week, so I've been edging every day. We met up on Friday and by then I was already so pent up and needy.

When we fucked that night, I didn't get to cum. She said she'll only let me cum on Sunday... maybe. We were home almost the entire weekend and we spent a lot of it just fucking.

I lost count of the number of times I had to stop because I was so close to cumming. We'd fuck for a couple hours, then take a break, and go back at it again. I just couldn't keep my hands off her.

Every thrust felt so good and I was so much more focused on pleasing her. I would get right on the edge, and have to go extremely slowly or I would have cummed. It was such torture, and yet felt so good.

And now I've actually come to love this being this desperate and horny all the time. My balls are so tight, and my cock feels so heavy with the almost overwhelming need to cum.

It's Sunday evening now, and earlier in the afternoon when we were fucking, my gf actually gave me permission to cum. She told me she loves feeling me cum in her. She looked in my eyes and told me to cum. To cum for her. And I almost exploded right then.

But then I... begged her not to let me cum. I couldn't believe what I was saying. I told her to please not let me cum. She was so surprised at first, but quickly agreed. And now, I'm back alone at home, typing this with my cock rock hard and leaking. Wondering what I've done and when I'll get to cum again.

Actually, do I even really want to cum...? I've been thoroughly broken and I think a part of me hopes she'll never let me cum..