I've been under my friend's control for 11 days ( u/pokeadot7 ) now, and orgasm free for 7 days since I had an accident on day 3 🥺.

One of my daily tasks is to write a journal about how I feel and to see the evolution of my denial journey, but I was a bad girl and didn't do yesterday's journal so as a punishment my friend said I have to make this one public.

Now I sit here with nipple clamps on, at my desk, at work, writing my journal, for everyone to read 🥺

The weekend started with an hour and a half of edging using 3 different toys, after every edge I had too change toy.

The toys he chose were the clit sucker, Nora and satisfyer partner (vibe). Each toy has its own personality and affects me in a different way, the clit sucker is fast making my pussy wet and edges build quickly 😩, The Lovense Nora is my favorite allows me to have a little more control over my edges, and the satisfyer vibe is the calmer one that gives me a little bit of a break. Which was needed 😣

When I do long sessions I tend to lose track of time and what's happening around me, but having to alternate toys made me aware of each edge, although to be honest I lost count at 12 edges 🫠🫠.

We are also training my ass. So the afternoon task was to use my butt plug for 3.15 hours. It is the first time I have used my buttplug outside of a play session. I was an exciting sensation while doing things around the house 🤭🤭. I felt naughty walking in my garden plugged and doing house chores with my family around the corner.

But unfortunately.. I couldn't hold it in any longer and after 2 hours 🥺 I had to take it out. My ass is clearly not ready yet to be plugged for so long. My friend calmed me down, and told me it was okay, and it takes time to stretch my little tight hole.

I needed to show my progress to him, making a video when taking it out. So he could see if I had a little gape.. unfortunately it wasn’t the case. 🥺 So he told me we need to work more on that, so my hole will be ready for him when we finally can meet in the future.

For the rest of the day the rule was no touch. I wanted to touch so bad at night 😩😩😩😩😩

On Sunday I had plans during the afternoon, so the task was in the morning...

I had to pinch my nipples with my nipple clamps and clitoris with two pencils and some elastic bands for 30 minutes.

It was the first time we did clit torture and it was a strange sensation, I felt cold and sore. As time went by I had to tease myself with a soft brush on my tits and clitoris.

When we finished that stage I had to edge with Nora for another hour and a half. For the first 30 minutes I controlled it myself but then my friend took control of the toy for the remaining hour, and that's when I lost my mind. 🤯🤯🤯🫠🫠🫠🥵🥵

When he controls the toy it's three times more intense and I go into goon state... 🤤🤤🫠it's incredible! I begged him to let me cum many times 😫😩 but obviously that wasn't in his plans. To be a good girl, I needed to take out Nora at one point, because I reached a hard edge, it felt almost like I’ve ruined.. 😣

Being his girl makes me horny, needy and cursy. I am completely his to do whatever he wants with me, deny me, edge me and ruin me... Encourage me to keep being a good girl for him and give him ideas to make it everything worse for me in the future 🙈🙈🙈

This post is getting very long but I'm going to take advantage to ask something.. Lately after the sessions I get an incredible urge to pee... Does it mean I am close to a some kind of squirt? 💦💦