I am lucky to live in a situation where it’s somewhat common, not an issue in other parts of my life, to enjoy something I have enjoyed since I first discovered masturbation.

That’s letting my vivid imagination run wild and spending hours masturbating. I started edging early on thanks to the (dating myself) to an early internet masturbation tips website. It’s killing me the name escapes me, but it had tips and techniques and instructions on how to make toys. The homemade toys were either a mess or awful. Fucking a cooked and cooled squash or lubed plastic bags in a towel is not fun, but I enjoyed the thrill and as soon as I could buy a real “pocket pussy” as they were called then, I did. At the adult bookstore along with my porno magazines.

Back then, I’d start a fantasy loosely based around someone I was crushing on or else from penthouse letters or early internet erotica websites. I’d use a combination of victorias secrets catalogs, sports illustrated swim suit editions, and a few porno magazines to give me visuals to augment my fantasies. Would her ass like look like that in a thong, her hard nipples looked like that when I saw her at the pool. She’d look like that with cum splashed on her tummy. If I had the house to myself, I could masturbate and fantasize for hours. I could easily edge and cum almost hourly. One time I edged out eleven separate orgasms over a full day. This translated well to partners who wanted to fuck the day away, and I was able to cum six times without really stopping in a two hour outdoor session with a women who was so turned on fucking at a little hot spring I knew she didn’t want to stop. I digress.

When I have a day or at least several hours to edge, my routines and preferences have changed. I have a wide variety of toys to choose from and we live in a golden age of pornography. Both porn that is created as a thoughtful work product and porn made as a thoughtful product purely for the creators excitement and pleasure. Simply, the simplicity of buying high quality artistic, authentic, ethical porn, is resulting in incredibly hot stuff, while sites like this result in these super erotic self expression.

I have been bringing back that old excitement of my younger days, but a bit differently given the times. I like to collect and curate - not only porn - my homes have wonderful books, records, art, furniture, etc., so I get into my collection to start to spin up fantasies.

I love gone wild audio for this. Recently, I have so turned on by women who indulge in masturbation, I have been collecting links to long masturbation sessions where they discuss in detail what they are doing, what’s on their mind, the fantasies they have, stories from their past, or the porn they like. And I go about doing a project and listen. Listen to women masturbate and edge and even goon. I love the long ones - masturbating while telling us a 45 minute long story is divine.

My mind builds images and I spin up the fantasy. Augmented by my own sexual experiences, imagining my current work crush masturbating for hours, and then enhanced with really good porn. I might listen to a long audio or two and then take a timed break - I will either watch a porn clip the audio reminded me of and use that as my timer, or I will set a timer and shop on many vids using search terms that might get me something like what I am fantasizing about, and watch the previews and put ones I am interested in my shopping cart, but I don’t buy yet.

The whole duration, I take my cock out. But I don’t touch it at all. I just watch it. Watch it get hard and throb. Knowing how good I am going to make it feel. When the timers done, my cock gets put back in my pants. As it gets a bit softer, I can feel the precum leak out. I love this.

As the day progresses, and this goes on, my fantasies more vivid and consuming, I love feeling and seeing my cock get heavy with arousal. I always wear black underwear so my precum stains can visually remind me of how good my cock is going to feel. I might write some erotica around my fantasy - I have a few pen pals who enjoy responding to specific types of erotica I write, so I might write it for them, throbbing and dripping.

As the evening approaches, and I walk and play with my dog, of course listening to audio porn, and make dinner, I start to settle in. I like to listen to an audio - listen to a women masturbate and edge, while reviewing more clips, getting excited for the porn I am going to indulge in later. Good porn - porn so good it is not available for free anywhere. I have a responsible budget, I don’t personally care for cam sites etc, I like a good scene. Any genre - any body type. I am personally strait, but I quite enjoy a good porn cock. I enjoy watching women of any size or shape enjoy their proclivities in an authentic or artistic way, whatever they are. So long as there is great dirty talk or sort of plot or story line to the scene, it could catch my interest. From excellent sensual porn, to gangbangs focused on female pleasure, bisexual threesomes but especially good MMF, to expressions of more unusual kinks. For example a performer with a humiliation kinks, who has fans use a piece of clothing as a cumrag. She goes out and about with her partner, for example going to the mall and a restarting in a cute little romper that is not obviously, but not subtly, stained all over with a fans cumshots. Her partner records on his phone as she discreetly flashes her tits and pussy. She slips a lush in at the restaurant and cums in public in her cumrag dress. Her consensual enjoyment makes this so hot to me.

I listen and shop for clips and slip cock rings on. I put one around the base, one around my shaft, and one around my glans. These give the slightest relief from the slight pressure, but I put them in such a way I can’t stroke. I love watching my cock throb and get needy. Any drop of precum I taste for the visceral experience of my erotic energy.

I smoke some marijuana or have an edible and a glass of wine as the night goes on. Fantasizing, watching porn clips I own that fuel my fantasies deeper. Building arousal.

As my high settles in, I go back to my office with the wide monitor. I scroll Reddit. Hoping to find a new profile of a women who is as obsessed with edging and masturbation and cumming as I am in that moment. Maybe she posts here or other related places. I like to scroll her posts and imagine and fantasize. A combination of porn clips playing on the monitor. Almost always a clip that is a full scene with a story line or narrative arc to it that is mostly erotic for the narrative. A clip that is just amazing sex and mostly erotic for the visual. And a cumshot compilation where the women is enthusiastic about being cummed on. At this point, the dirty talk from the porn layered with gonewildaudio.

I strip naked - my cock heavy with arousal and semi erect at all times. Leaky and dripping. It’s still time to build the fantasy and give my mind and body totally over to sexual pleasure.

I take out my lube and three different toys. They all are different variations of a cock vibrator. They hug my cock and vibrate and tap and stimulate. I alternate between them. It amps the pleasure but isn’t enough to edge hard yet. I check my shopping cart and search for more clips. Scroll Reddit, alternate out the clips I am playing on the side. I love feeling my cock throb and twitch and strain against the vibrator when I come across something that catches me and generates a powerful visual of my fantasy. It can be fleeting - maybe just a vivid brief scene in the total fantasy. But my twitching cock, straining and throbbing, tells me it’s right.

I alternate between the toys. If the moods right, I slip a butt plug in. Still scrolling.

Then it happens. My pelvic floor starts to contract and the throbbing and straining gets more pronounced and intense. No stoking. I feel myself building to the edge. As soon as I am on the edge I pull the toy and stop. It’s so important to stop soon here or I ruin.

But know it’s time. I take out the strokers. Two full size fleshlights, and my favorite, a small open ended fleshlight quickshot. I take out my butt plug and get out my Njoy wand if I am in the mood for anal play.

I start to buy clips I was interested in. I stop the scrolling and put up the clip. I still have the other three clips playing, maybe still an audio, but I adjusted the volume for the clip.

I spread my legs, lube the toy, and watch the clip. I watch my cock and as soon as it’s hard I start stroking. First with a full size fleshlight.

I love waiting for just the right moment to sink my cock into it. I go with slow strokes and watch and fantasize and verbalize. I edge now - I come safely to the edge and stop. And repeat.

I love to do this for hours. Cycling through my porn collection. One video reminding me of the next I should watch. Occasionally buying a new clip I need. Safe edges.

Once my cock is throbbing and red from arousal and my sexual fantasies are immersive, I use the open ended stroker and njoy. I edge hard. Pumping fast and getting on the edge, over and over. Slip the enjoy in my ass and rub my prostate and feel the stretch and penetration from the toy add to my arousal. I edge hard through a whole clip. Pause. Pick a new one, and go again.

At a certain point I am ready. Indulging and not touching all day. Edging soft 3 or 4 hours. Edging hard for and hour two, I am ready and need it.

I am careful now. If the porn doesn’t meet the fantasy i change the porn. My arousal is so high it’s constant. No need to rush it.

I know when I have got the right video for my fantasy. I start to stroke and toy my ass and my cock throbs visually. I notice my strokes slow a bit as I come to the edge and don’t stop but just back off. Maybe I stop and just rub my prostate. I try not to leak because I want to see my cock cum hard.

I always decide to cum at the highlight of the clip. I try to make it the cum shot or her orgasm, but sometimes something in the scene is so hot and in line with my fantasy I say out loud, I am going to cum. I am always leaned back and have my feet on my desk. I lean in and all of my entire focus goes to my cock. I stare at it, and my body becomes nothing but pleasure emanating from my aroused, slicked, throbbing cock. I stroke and fuck my ass in time - two slow strokes for each slow thrust. The feeling of the njoy penetrating me always feels so good at this time.

As it comes, my entire body clenches. I always point my cock toward me so I cum on myself. I need to see my cock cum and feel it splash on my body.

I feel the orgasm after a session like this start in the back of my head. I can feel the release of chemicals - it feels good and is intoxicating. I stop breathing - involuntarily. My mouth open. The only thing I am capable of is watching my cock and stroking and thrusting in time. My entire body but especially my pelvic floor contracts hard. The squeeze on the njoy adding to the intensity. The release starts in my head and I feel it move down my body as the clench and contraction maximize and the last of my breath is squeezed out.

I start to cum. The contraction release hard the first time and my largest rope of cum will shoot. I love to see and feel this splash across my aroused body, if it reaches my face or open mouth it’s an incredible orgasm. My stroking increases and my cock and pelvis throb and pump and more cum splashes on my chest and tummy and arm and hands. I stroke and thrust faster with each orgasmic contraction, which prolongs and intensifies the orgasm as it tapers off.

When I finish I kill the sound right away. It’s not regret or clarity. I want the moment for myself. I admire the cum all over me. Breathe hard. I don’t usually taste besides incidentally, but I rub my cum into my body. I never towel it off. Sometimes I fall asleep for a minute after this. I am always light headed.

I clean up any lube. And go to bed.

That’s how I like to do it.