So by the end of today I'll have completed 4 weeks of no release whatsoever!! I haven't even had a ruin or spill or anything which is a first for me, I've had months without a proper orgasm, but I'd always have ruins occasionally. Not this time though, and it's what I thought I couldn't but have wanted for years now!

Lately things seem to have normalized, like I don't feel constant pressure anymore and things just feel relaxed. But even though I can focus on other things when needed, getting triggered hits me so hard when it happens 😵‍💫 In general the mental effects of horniness are different than when I'm on orgasms, when I start touching myself I lose my ability to think and my inhibitions so fast 👉🏻👈🏻 it makes me feel a bit like I'm in trance, but I also always listen to binaurals while edging so I might as well be. But this seems like the perfect mixture because I my horniness can jump straight to 100 right when I need it to be :3

I'm so freaking happy with this, masturbation feels so fulfilling and 10 times more pleasurable now 🥰 And yes, edging is my normal masturbation now 😵‍💫 Cumming usually doesn't cross my mind anymore while touching, and it's not something I ever get tempted to do it feels kinda gross to me when I think about it. I don't wanna feel that emptiness, both physically and emotionally, being full feels so comfortable to me now! I have a feeling that this will just be the new default from now on and that I won't be cumming for a loooong time >w< aaaaa saying that makes me so excited this is so hot and fun 💕 I've been masturbating at least 2 hours a day for these past 4 weeks, 4h a day on weekends, without a single yucky O =w= I felt so unfulfilled when I was still having them and now I'm so happy ✨I can't wait to add month after month to my streak hehe~