It's been a long messy day. Now 6.26am Monday, started touching myself about 10am yesterday... going for the full 24 hours I think!! The best part is, when I started way back at 10 I thought "I probably shouldn't, my dick is pretty worn out from yesterday". 🤣 Is there a hornier 36yo virgin out there anywhere?? Somehow it just keeps GOING, it's even semi-hard. Exhausted dicks are the best.

Anyway, I'm now wired, sleep deprived and halfway out of my mind, have started talking to myself... had something like a fever dream in the middle of the night which I wrote up at great length here: https://www.reddit.com/r/FriendzoneBetas/s/NrKO3jcPXw

... and some great chats with alpha guys afterwards, who reminded me how much I deserve to be lonely and frustrated and humping my hand pussy for my entire life and torturing myself to the endless Reddit scroll of hot girls and sex that I can never have ... I'm so desperate though, pleeeeaaasse God can I have sex soon, or anything, but no I don't deserve it, don't deserve anything but pain and frustration and start the day over again and ohhhh need to rest

(Felt so good to just ramble for a bit like all you other degenerates!!)