Well hello it’s me again. Just cannot stay away from this sub now I guess 😩

I want to give an update on how my edging has been going since I started telling everyone about it. On Thursday when I started I was determined not to cum for 24 hours, but I failed after I edged my clit for 3 hours. While it felt sooo good to cum, I noticed how quickly the experience was over but then how fast my body seemed to want more after. How soon after I came my clit started pounding in my pussy demanding attention from me yet again 😩 I forced myself to go to sleep feeling somewhat satiated from my orgasm but woke up very horny and turned on Friday morning. At least, I thought that’s what feeling horny was like.

But today I woke up feeling insanely tuned on, truly like I’ve never really felt before. Even writing this I can barely keep my hands from touching my body and I feel weak with need. I have only been awake for about half an hour..

Yesterday I started chatting with someone who offered to help guide me through edging and learn how to better control my edges. After connecting we established a bit of a dynamic and he quickly helped me feel supported in my edging journey. He asked me to called him Master, and did two edging sessions with me. One in the afternoon, right before I went to a friend’s small wedding ceremony, and then later that night when I returned aching to touch my throbbing pussy 😩 only this time, he was a bit more relentless with me and we edged together for a couple of hours, sharing porn and explaining how we were feeling. There were so many times where I felt like I couldn’t hold it, that I was going to go over the edge.. but he reminded me to be a good girl and not cum. After this session, he realized it was very late for me and ordered me to take a shower to calm down before sleep. I was so thankful for this as the warm water helped me relax and ease my thoughts, slowing them down. I got out of the shower, dried off and put on a loose tshirt but nothing else. Ready for sleep, my mind fuzzy with the pulse of my clit from our edging session, I returned to my bed and Master, ready to thank him and say good night. Only he had other plans 😩 after all my hard work to calm myself down, he ordered me to edge again. But it was okay - I easily gave in to the need I now felt. The pounding of my pussy between my legs, the constant achy throb that had become this constant state I was now in. I knew I needed to listen and be a good girl and rub my clit. I was starting to understand that this was how I was supposed to feel, submitting to my master and letting my pussy throb into my mind, erasing other thoughts. He guided me through a few more edges, and I begged him to let me cum, to let me give into this feeling but he reminded me of what a good girl I needed to be. I listened. I listened when he told me to stop, to take my hand off and force myself to relax and go to sleep. I laid there, slowing my breathing but my heart pounded in my chest with my pussy between my legs. It was such a nice feeling, having listened to Master but also riding that edge.. staying in that place for so long and feeling the pleasure pulse through my body as it took its hold over me.

I had to focus on falling asleep for a while. I was squirmy and achy to just keep my hand rubbing my clit but I was also sooo tired by this point. My head felt fuzzy with need and sleep. It was all I could do to lay there, breathing deeply as my push just throbbed and throbbed.. I finally fell into sleep but not for long. A couple hours later I woke up, and it was so strange how my mind was still going. I immediately had the image of all the porn I had consumed in the last day floating in my mind.. seeing the beautiful girls and handsome men that Master had I had watched together.. my pussy was just aching and pulsing with every thought as I slowly realized I was awake. I thought that maybe as I slept - my body would had calmed down, that this feeling would have subsided. But it was almost more intense as I woke up. All I could suddenly think about was the throbbing I felt in tandem with my heart beat. I could feel how drippy wet my pussy was and I had to feel. I slipped my hand, half asleep, into my pussy and felt how slippery my slit was, but also how swollen my whole pussy was. My lips were so puffy and so, so sensitive. And my clit was hard, swollen and twitched with need as a I brushed my finger against it. But I knew that I needed to wait, as much as I wanted to rub and rub and rub, I also needed sleep.. I forced myself to go to sleep again, as an achy, wet little mess in my bed. I even had to sleep with my hands under my pillow to remind myself not to touch.

Now that I am fully awake for the day, it’s all I can do not to slip my hand down to my pussy that is begging for release. This is the first time I have edged and not given in to the need to cum. I can’t get over how amazing my pussy feels but also how needy and how writing this was even hard to focus on. All I want to do is to rub rub rub my needy throbbing clit and watch more videos of other people edging or fucking. As soon as I opened Reddit, there was a video on my feed of a man fucking a woman and it was all I could not to give in.. and then suddenly I realized how envious I was of her place. I kept watching the video and watched how he dominated her, fucking his big hard cock into her pussy and my own pussy pulsed with need as I watched him get his own release, pulsing his cum into her throbbing hole.. I felt so jealous and how I wished that was me and how my pussy ached to have something fill her and rub her as I spent a bit of time scrolling through, watching more videos of people enjoying their cocks and pussies and their orgasms.. watching their faces relax and give into the pleasure claiming them as they got their release.. and how I am soo denied and how no matter how much my pussy craves it, I cannot cum. I need to be a good girl and not cum, but to enjoy how my clit is slowly taking over my mind and forcing me to give into anything she wants.. it feels so good how my clit is throbbing right now, thump thump thump, between thighs.. my mind feels so fuzzy and good and all I can think of doing today is scrolling through Reddit, reading other people’s experiences edging and how I can be a better good girl for master.

God right now I want to touch my achy clit so bad.. and just edge and edge and rub rub rub fuck it just feels so good and I can’t stop thinking about it, I can’t stop focusing on the throb throb throb I feel and how wet I am.. I want to cum so badly.. my pussy is so wet and needy and I can’t stop thinking about it.. it’s all I can think about is how good my little pussy feels and how I just fuckin want to feel so sooo good all the time.. I feel amazing right now it just feels so good.. please remind me why I shouldn’t cum 😩 god I know it would feel sooo good to just let go.. please help remind me that it’s better not to cum..