Did you also get new masturbation habits as a result of denial? I wanted to keep increasing the level of arousal within me while masturbating and as a result, more and more aids were added. Almost every time I edge I plug my ass, I put a collar on and clamp my nipples. Lately I always try to soak my panties with as much pussy juice as possible just so I can put it in my mouth while edging. 3 years ago I would have been disgusted by tasting my wet panties and 6 years ago I would have been disgusted by an anal plug. I think edging and even occasional denial can improve your sexuality enormously because you become much more open to trying new things. it also makes me love myself more and appreciate my body more. I love my body for this incredibly hot feeling it can give me and for the delicious juices it produces. Have you perhaps had similar experiences as me?