I really like reducing stimulation as I keep myself denied, so I normally rub myself over my clothes or sometimes use thick condoms and touch very lightly... Its been a few weeks since I last came and I came across desensitizing condoms (they have something in them to make you go numb) and thought itd be a good idea to try and edge with them... I got a pack , waited until my roommate wasnt home so Id be free and comfy, and edged a few times to get myself ready and fully horny, then put it on... I assumed they made you less sensitive, not fully make it numb 😣😣😣😣 It started to numb my dick, and I was struggling to feel any pleasure from jerking it, which just got me more and more desperate... All I wanted was at last SOME pleasure but it was denying me even that, and I was just trying so hard to get to the edge... After an hour of touching and not getting close I was so fucking desperate, I took it off but whatever numbing thing they used was still working, and I wasnt able to feel much. After another hour, I was gasping, out of breath, and thrashing around my bed, still trying to edge myself and at that point I feel like my brain was melted away 😣😣😣 I couldnt take it anymore and promised myself Id just cum if I could get to the edge, and kept jerking my little tortured dick, and started using my other hand to finger myself for any bit of pleasure I could get... After almost another hour my sensitivity was returning, but I was dehydrated, tired, and out of breath, so I made a last push, buried my face into my pillow, and instinctively started to whimper and beg just for a chance to cum but my arms gave out and I just eventually gave up... I didnt even realize it at first but I was crying a little out of desperation, and it was the most intense torture I put myself thru... I swore off of doing it again, butr the worst thing is I keep thinking about it and edging to the thought of how desperate I was, and the pack of condoms I had keep temptingg me in my drawer, but also its so scary....