I relapsed again.

I live with 2 roommates and a couple of days ago one had to work and the other went out for drinks. My girlfriend had to work so I had a couple of hours to myself. I just wanted to masturbate quickly and watch a movie after while I smoked a doobie.

What actually happened: I smoke a joint, I open reddit and get insanely horny. On my big TV screen I put my reddit and now I’m playing porn on my phone. I get completely naked and put towels all over my couch. Why, you ask. Because I have a spit fetish and I love when girls play with their spit and have like a full bowl of it and cover them selves in it. I thought, that’s so fucking hot, let me do that. So I started masturbating mindlessly while choking on my fingers generating massive amounts of spit until I had like a glass full of saliva. Then I grabbed another bigger container and started pouring the spit all over my face again and again, each time catching it with the other container. I also grabbed some lube (which was completely unnecessary because of the spit) and made myself even more messy and sloppy. I started imagining being the girls in the porn I saw and was actually losing my mind, grunting moaning, dirty talk etc. After, I went to the shower and took all the liquids I had and poured it all over me, covering me completely. Then, too make it complete, I fucked my ass a little with my fingers and some household objects. I felt like a whore so I layed upside down in the shower and I came all over my face and in my mouth. Then took a shower and acted like nothing happened.

No one of my friends/gf/family know that I’m such a perverted gooner who has shemale/ sissy fantasies and so many other fetishes.

I wish I had a goon bud or could goon together with my gf but she’s against porn. (Also really want to have sex with sissies/shemales or be a sissy for someone but I’ll never cheat on my gf)

What about you guys? You have any interesting stories?