If this doesn’t prove how addicted I am then idk what does. After these past couple of days of not being able to edge, I finally have time to myself. I really don’t want to give in but I opened Reddit and even the action of opening Reddit alone has me already getting turned on. It hasn’t even been that long, only a couple days, yet it’s all my body can think about. It’s all I dream about. I’ll sleep and I’ll dream of edging and gooning. I’ll see something hot and immediately the urge to goon will come back. Something is seriously wrong with me.

Earlier I was scrolling through tiktok and I got a bra advertisement too, but said ad was for a bra that opens and the front and it showed the model unhooking the front and it almost flashed the audience and that did something to my brain. I hate this so much. I hate how dependent I am to this stuff. It’s why I keep thinking about quitting due to how addicted I am. I’m not sure what to do at this point other than pathetically hump and give in whenever I can