In a horny haze I caved and bought a set of trainer buttplugs. I had been using one of those small ones with the fake jewel on the end but found the round base was not suitable for long term wear. Even in hours long edging sessions it would begin to chafe let alone wearing more casually as I kind of want to try.

When edging I found that being able to squeeze around the plug helped distract me from the aching emptiness inside my cunt. I'm not sure it makes denial any easier as I still lose control frequently when masturbating either way, sometimes into a full orgasm or a ruin if I have some sense left. But it heightens the sensations all along my hips to have that extra invasion, and when I wear my lush they tuck together snugly between the inner walls in a way that made my brain melt and it was during a masturbation session with it inside I ordered the plugs. I've never really thought of anal as approachable. I struggle to see myself getting fucked or using a dildo in my bum due to IBS, but a plug to sit snugly is just a delight. Way beyond pleasure I was expecting from that zone.

The plugs I recieved, the smallest size is longer but thinner than my jewel plug. I'm considering sizing up to the middle plug feom the outset as it will be a newer sensation but maybe I should work my way up slowly. I'm going to vibe my clit hard before I make that decision, and hope my little ass doesn't regret it tomorrow.