I thought getting laid would even me out... I feel like I was already losing entire evenings to fucking myself and relapsing into my porn addiction...

But recently I lost my mind and started sleeping with an old friend of mine, who I had heard plenty of rumors about concerning the bedroom. After our first night together I had to call out of work, I couldn't think straight, he just kept making me cum over and over again. And I just let it happen. There wasn't one damn thought in my stupid brain that was going to help me not be this man's cum-filled fleshlight.

But now here I am... grinding against everything I own watching porn and fantasizing about all the unspeakable things I want done to me. I edge myself to the point of being feral, everything aches and my fingers get covered in a warm film now. I need help, I need to get as wet as possible so it feels like a load is already leaking out of me when I start to finally let myself playing. This can't be normal right? There has to be something wrong with me!