For the longest time I was a secret masturbator. Going online, finding pics, and then later, vids, that got me going, stroking for hours, never talking about it or sharing the filth or the fun. Real life was vanilla, alone time was HOT!

Over the years the internet has grown and developed into a pornosexual wonderland. All sorts of amazing horny people to share the erotic delights with. It's helped open people's minds to different ways of expressing their sexuality, and my horizons expanded too.

I always considered myself dominant. GFs liked me taking control, and I fantasised about it when I jerked off.

And then it happened. A subbie girl I was with (irl) switched! Omgosh, mind - blown. She was younger (but I'm pretty hot and fun and horny) and being controlled and toyed with by a sexually confident (and adventurous) partner was amazing. Sadly, it, ended when our circumstances changed and our lives moved on apart.

Now I find myself craving that kind of dynamic again. Where ANYTHING could happen, we talk about ideas, explore, play, cum, edge, encourage and push each other. Mutual pleasure, genuine connections. I hope I find that again.