Worked super hard all week pretty much didn't have any time for my self today is the only day off from work and everything else, I have the next 8-12 hour's for myself, I dropped a molly made my hookah rolled my joints. But plug, vibrator and my sleeve with lube is on my table waiting to be used. I have 3 screen playing different tease PMV music is loud and I'm slowly starting feel my self. Touching my muscles feeling how much I need this relaxing time. This is like meditation for me at this point this is the only time where I can turn my brain off just well just exist in pleasure and not think about anything negative. I sometimes feel bad about how much time and money I spend doing this but honestly with how hard I'm working I think it helps me balance it all out a little bit. It feels guilty hiding this side of me from everyone who knows me as the hard working super disciplined dude who never rests and slips up or makes mistakes, but this is the real me just existing in pleasure worshiping the women budy and dominating it next. Nothing like a goddess trusting you to abuse her and my God I'm I addicted to after care. Cuddling a shaking girl crying in your arms, as you thank her for trusting you and opening her self up to you drawing her a bath and cooking her dinner afterwards. Massaging her to sleep and making her breakfast in the morning, God there's no better feeling in the world than earing an other humans trust, I don't mind the gender. I feel like that's what we all want just trust someone to take care of us and not judge. Sorry if I rambled too much, thank you for reading this far, if you send a chat saying you "orange" I will send picture of my body as a thank you for reading thus far :) can't wait to have fun tonight, what is everyone up to?