I've shared about my journey through denial previously, which you can find on my profile. This time, things are a little different... I'm trying to find the right way to tell you the events of last week.

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It's been 56 days since my last orgasm, my cumming dat was last Sunday. Unfortunately, despite planning our usual call, universe didn't allow it to happen. That's when everything started to feel overwhelming.

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I was a mess sad, angry, frustrated, and incredibly needy but to be honest, I still am. After some discussion, we decided to wait another week until we could have our talk and climax together.

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He's been giving me daily tasks, but I'm struggling to complete them. I genuinely want to do it well, but I'm hesitant to edge now. You might wonder why. And it is because around day 40, I noticed that i am having like litte ruined orgasms when edging. They're not as strong as the real one is for me and they are not "hard edges" but it's becoming harder to manage. After the session, I often find myself moaning, whimpering, almost on the verge of tears due to frustration.

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It's incredibly challenging! I used to be really good at edging, but now I'm afraid of failing.

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Anyway, one of today's tasks is to make this post and rub my needy clit for a minute, at work, for each post.

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Please, I'm begging you, don't comment, please! I can't take it anymore.