Sir has been playing heavy in denial and degredation recently but upped the ante this week with permission/challenge to start posting on reddit. Videos, images, text etc. All to show off what a pathetic, needy, denied edgeslut I am for him.

He instructed me to buy some things to enable these posts, he was thinking phone camera holder, remote, lighting, etc. But I snuck an extra few things in the basket. A labia spreader and some lidocaine.

I've been frothing at the lips (I'll let you guess which ones) for a looooonnnggg time over the idea of numbing my clit and cunt so Sir could play with them for longer, and harder, without being troubled by my lack of orgasm control and having to stop so I could show some restraint. I accidently came without permission again last week and I think that was the straw that broke the back, per say, and has made Sir want me to degrade myself on reddit as punishment.

I thought I'd try out the lidocain today, solo. So I smothered on a pea sized amount to my clit, waited the advised 5 minutes by insering a plug into my ass. Then I turned on my wand. Lowest setting is usually enough to get me started on an edging session... barely felt a thing. Pleased I turned it up... and up... and up. Normally I cant stand the vibe any higher than half and only for quick bursts. Today I found myself straddling the head of that wand, pushed tight against my numb, throbbing clit, for 30mins on full power.

I knelt on my bed, humping that vibe head like a bitch possessed and all it would yield is a constant, shaking, moaning edge. My thighs were trembling, my knuckles were white, my clit was hovering on the brink as my poor cunt was bruised and rubbed raw by the powerful, full throttle vibe mercilessly pushed against it. I moaned and whimpered and groaned and whined my way through until my legs gave out and I had to stop.

I didnt cum. My cunt is aching with denial, sticky and wet. It's still spasming now, each clench reminding me of the thick plug in my asshole.

Sir is a pleasure dom and I am convinced he will take this new trick I have discovered and make me regret my impulse buy. I cant wait to be bent and spread wide over his lap again, this time I'm convinced no matter what he does, my disobedient, needy clit will not be able to cum.