I’ve found myself really into orgasm denial and edging recently, but lack the discipline to be able to stay away from orgasming for multiple days like I want. I wanna get to that desperate needy gooned out state where I’m basically begging to be touched and allowed to cum. When I’m by myself, it’s easy to talk myself out of it and go for an hour or two edging and have a big orgasm at the end. Don’t get me wrong! I love the way this feels, I just wanted to go bigger.

A couple weeks ago, I mentioned this to my boyfriend (ftm 20, any pronouns) and apparently he’s been sitting on it for a few days, thinking about how he could properly edgy, deny, and ruin me. Well, I didn’t know this until a couple nights ago. For context, this man loves sucking my dick. He will literally beg to do so, and has on multiple occasions. Additionally, he will edge me for HOURS on end. Friday night, two days ago, he was sucking me off for at least an hour straight. He had me riding the rollercoaster of pleasure. Then, he stops. He comes up for a breath and changes positions and just starts talking to me. He gives me a proposal. Tell me how he’s been thinking about what I said about my lack of discipline. Tells me that we should deny both of ourselves from orgasming until we go on our trip on Tuesday, where we can properly fuck and suck and edge each other until we’re brain dead, gooned out, drowning in our own cum and slick /hyp, etc.

Last night, we had more gay sex, with the intent of edging and making sure that neither one of us are cumming. It was incredible. Guys, this man makes me feel sooo good in every way and just thinking about it has me dripping and throbbing. I love watching him suck and lick my bottom growth in between lapping up my slick so I don’t drip all over the bed. He loves feeling me squeeze and contract around his fingers when he’s knuckles deep inside me.

I still have two more days before I can cum and I’m gonna try and keep you all updated, at least for today and tomorrow. I’m so fucking horny and needy. I’m allowed to touch but I can’t cum. I’d love to hear anyone’s thoughts in the comments or in my dms!