Ever since I got into gooning/edging 3 years ago, I’ve realized I’ve been on a journey to becoming my own idea of porn. And it’s weirdly been a form of self love and improved my own self image to the point where even my own friends notice I’ve become more “attractive”

It’s so fucking funny how demented/absurd it all is in a way, but fuckkk, life is whatever you make of it.

I started masturbating to how hot my cock looked a few ears ago. It felt so weird haha, but eventually I found myself attracted to how thick it looked, how my balls hung and looked full. I started posting videos on Reddit and eventually found myself getting dozens of dms, people asking me to post more, complete worship comments. It was intoxicating.

I started having a confidence in myself when I was out. Like my own personal sluttiness as a secret. I felt….fucking hot.

I’ve since become more ambitious with my clothing. Learning how clothes highlight my body in an attractive manner. What clothes makes me feel good. What clothes makes me feel sluttier. Which pants show off my cock the best.

I started focusing on my physique more. I felt a lust for my own body, to really push it and shape it. Now I’m at the gym 5 days a week. It has done wonders for my mental health. I feel actually energetic! I want to be porn. I can see people looking at me now. I’ve notice a shift in how I’m treated. I’ve had multiple people make moves on me after just meeting at a club or bar. It feels so fucking hot. Such a constant feed of new memories and situations to stroke myself to and edge. I’m addicted to this lifestyle

I now focus on what I eat. What foods make me feel good. Some foods make me feel hornier and fuckkkk I love it. Drink water everyone!!!

I actually like how I look in photos now. Godddd. I want to just look more and more fucking hot to myself. I want to literally be someone’s perfect porn fuck. I want to meet someone as obsessed with big cocks and sex and weed and edging, and just have a week of constant pleasure.

It’s literally made me more extroverted and willing to take risks. To be more clear with intentions and fuckkk it’s made me a fucking sexual object for some people. Fuckkkkk to just be treated like cock meat is so fucking hot.

I’m so addicted now. It feels so good. Part of me wants to just fully make porn with other gooners, but I also just enjoy where I’m at right now. I even started making audio that has made so many people cum hard. I fucking love being porn Fuck sorry I’m stoned haha.