One of the most intense sexual experiences I have ever had was attempting to let a man throatfuck me and gagging so hard and repeatedly that I lost control of myself in the moment and threw up on his cock. It was a dazed moment of intense embarrassment and shame followed by a euphoric type of lust. I felt confused because my mental instinct was to pull away in disgust and shame, but at the same time I felt myself aroused and wet at the idea that I was used so intensely while trying to pleasure a man that I literally lost control of my faculties and body.

My first time, I was leaning over on the sofa as we were watching a show, pretty casual. I went down on him and gradually went deeper as he guided me. eventually I was gagging and struggling as he thrust up and pushed my head down and after a few times I accidentally got sick. it wasn't really forced or super aggressive but it was just enough to push me over the edge. Spaghetti noodles from my dinner over his cock. I was really embarrassed and I could tell he was a bit shocked; but we were both lost in the lust enough where I continued to stroke him and suck even with the mess. I know it should have grossed me out but in a strange way continuing became really sexy.

Now I find myself caught between a rock and a hard place, having a kink that most would consider disgusting and extreme that I crave to explore further.

it is really nice to open up and confess such an experience and would love to talk about this more. It's something I fantasize about exploring again with future partners who are kinky enough to handle the intensity. Thanks for listening!