So, I've always been a bit of a gooner and edge addict. I fucking LOVE jerking off for hours at a time and not cumming until I'm good and ready. Something about pushing myself to the absolute limit just turns me on. Plus it feels so good to struggle to hold back a big load. I'm talking I would edge for 4 hours a day and then when I finally came....fuck, it was good.

About a month ago, I went on a new antidepressant med because my other ones weren't working too well. One of the side effects of this one is the inability to cum. Well, my luck made it so I'm struggling to cum now. At first, I was super frustrated and it bummed me out. My new meds are making me feel better mentally, but I wanted to actually be able to cum. I talked to my doctor and said about these issues, so if it keeps it up, I will switch again.

Right now, I'm kind of riding it out and it's honestly becoming a bit of a fetish. I can still get rock hard, horny, edge for hours at a time, but now that I can't cum, it's kinda fucking hot....is that bad? Like no matter how much I push myself and edge, I just can't blow my load. Sure, it's fucking frustrating, but something about that turns me on A LOT. I don't think I will stay on these meds forever, but right now, it's turning me on a lot.

To give you an example, the other day I ended up edging for like 12 hours. Not straight! But off and on all day. Normally, I would break after like 5 hours, but this was so intense. Just sitting there, jerking away watching porn and sitting in a sex chatroom...fuck, it was really amazing. I swear, not cumming as well has made my cock a bit thicker too. It's probably from being so backed up, but damn, it's sexy as fuck.

I'm at the point now where I'm trying to eventually cum, but it's been insanely difficult...I got super close tonight, but my cock "locked up" when I got close and couldn't blow my load...I wish someone could just use me as their own personal sex toy, you getting to cum and me just here unable to even drip precum