I always love cnc and being used/forced especially by older men. As i’ve been in therapy and in my head more i realized the aspect i love the most is the ddlg situation. I’ve struggled with darker kinks and always felt embarrassed but, i can’t ignore it anymore. relationships and such have never satisfied in that realm because no one knows this is what i’m into. I have tried to fight it as I know it’s a taboo subject and telling myself it’s probably too much of a long shot dream but then i keep coming back to reddit, exposing myself to dirty old men as I relive my trauma dynamic on my terms and they’re proving to me i can have the situation i’ve dreamed of all along