I am a sub leaning switch and I am looking for a woman (or maybe couple) to talk to online, and edge and play with. In person would be better still but most of you aren't near DC. I can edge myself, I can tell myself I won't cum, that I will do the dirty embarrassing things I fantasize about, but that's not nearly as much fun as having someone to share it with. It's a lot like how you can't tickle yourself. At a certain point, I give in and let myself cum. I only go so far with the humiliation. That's not the feeling I want, that's not what I fantasize about.

I don't want someone who just sort of follows my script, who does the things on my list as written. I want to talk to someone who is interested in similar things, and who understands the feelings I am seeking. The most exciting and fun would be if you are excited, aroused, amused by my reactions to your control. I really enjoy that feeling of not knowing, of being denied and building excitement. I like building anticipation too, talking about how frustrating it is going to be, about how you will make me do whatever to "earn" the orgasm. Maybe you think it will be funny to have me lick the cum off of a plate, or you just want the power to be able to tell me to push a dildo into my throat. I want to entertain you talking about that sort of idea while we enjoy ourselves.

Some fun kinks have come from exploring ideas while I was feeling horny and eager to please. An idle thought or question turns into something to try. Maybe a scene from a movie, or porn, just stuck in your mind and you want to try it. I am fascinated by the idea of being seduced into a new kink by a woman who takes advantage of my lust when she is denying me. Long ago an online partner started talking about how it would be fun to make me eat cum every time she allowed me to orgasm. That training has since faded, but it was embarrassing and fun at the time. More recently I have gotten myself some long distance vibrating toys, and the videos I see of people using those in public are fascinating. I've tried that like twice, and it's scary, embarrassing, and so GD exciting not knowing if the woman talking in my headset and controlling my toy wants to tease me, or make me have an orgasm as a car is driving past or a dog walking neighbor is nearby. One woman was getting me interested in wearing panties for her, it's a shame that her life got busy, I kind of wonder where that would have gone. That's just a few ideas, we could talk about those, or I am interested in hearing about what turns you on. Seriously, if it's not a hard limit (non consent, incest, bathroom, for example) I would at least explore the idea if you talk me into it.

I know that it seems like everyone is a sub looking for a dominant, and if you enjoy being in control, but also want to submit I have done that. I like being in control, making a woman whimper and plead. I have ideas there as well, but what excites you is most important.

If you have read this far, thank you, you might be the right sort of person to talk to. I write a lot, and that's not for everyone, but words are the only tool I have to connect with you at this point. My messages are open and I would like to hear from you.