I am so positively intense people are giving me their way, starring at me, paying attention to me over others. I can only sense some intentions and may be but not to good extent feelings. Some are shying away from me, some look to appreciate me looking at them. They wana talk to me but waiting for me to say something first.

Those hurting in life look at me in mysterious ways.

I went through a lot of hardships in the last couple months including car accident and divorce that followed but i would say i am rested, very well rested. I spent most of the time watching bullshit youtube vidoes, smoking my herb alone. There were days i didnot leave and didnot talk to anyone.

Mentally i am still struggling with old problems to a lesser extent, my confidence has risen as pain from the MVA releases me. I don't and i cant take advantage of this ability though but i think it would grow if all my pain went away.

What do you think is happening to me?

Am I losing it and others are trynna get my attention to help? Why some people (men and woman) all of a sudden want my attention? Why people just wana be staring at me like they wana see something in me. If i am waking up i am waking up to know we are suffering. What are people looking for in me?