How can I move on and understand that he is a bad person and sexually coerced me?

You know how men are taught in our society to get laid the first chance they get. I came across the term sexual coercion and was thinking about something I experienced a year ago. I think I never got to heal.

I met a guy I was very attracted to and used to see him while hanging out in friends groups. It was obvious for everyone that there was something between us and we were always flirty. After 3 weeks he asked me out and we went on a date but nothing happened. However 2 days after I got my masters acceptance so I knew I will be leaving the country to pursue my education . When I told him I was leaving, I kinda saw another person in front of me. He became very cocky and kissed me in a very non romantic way. However since I have been waiting for this moment for a long time I kissed him back and we made out but I didn’t want to sleep with him. I just wanted to be close to him because I genuinely liked him. Even though I was aware that a relationship might not be the best idea at the moment. he even made it clear on that matter, that all we have is now (2 weeks before I leave). The following day the same thing happened except this time he started putting his hands into my pants, I removed his hand but he kept pushing until I let him. He then grabbed my hand and placed it on his penis and kept asking me to jerk him but I removed it several times. During our next encounter, he kept pushing for sexual things as well, asking me to show him my boobs telling me that he’ll think that there is something wrong with them if I don’t show him. He then placed his hands on my shoulders and pushed me down (he wanted a blowjob). I told him I don’t want to do it and that I’m still a virgin in case he thinks that something more will happen. He told me “all virgins like to give blowjobs “and that “At this age I should have tried it already “ and “please “ and that’s how I ended up doing it. The thing is in most times I was turned on and he could see that, but never wanted to escalate things. I think now I realize that I felt I had no control over the situation and I was afraid that this was tho only way to be with him so I prefered it over nothing. I also didn’t want him to see me as boring. I was so confused after everything thinking that it was my fault and I should have left. After all I did go along with it. After few months I was thinking that the situation was fucked up and even started thinking that maybe if I hadn’t left the country we would be together and none of this would have happened. I guess I realized I wasn’t healed from it but thought it was because I was into him and thinking about the “what if” scenario , but What was really going on I guess is that I felt so disrespected that I wanted to erase what happened and felt like if I went back in time, the only way I was in control and could have done something to change the situation was if I didn’t have to travel. So I blamed myself, blamed the situation but never once him. I tell myself that I agreed to all of this at the end he was just being a guy and insisting My brain would go like: Had things been different he wouldn’t have acted that way and we would probably have taken more time to get to know each other and feel comfortable enough.

Anyway after his shift with me and our encounters I left and we never talked again. I feel awful, devalued dehumanized used and like he never really saw me.