I’ve recently been diagnosed with bulimia and binge eating, I’m seeing a psychologist that specialises in eating disorders and tbh I feel like I shouldn’t be there. Idk what it is but I keep having these thoughts that my habits don’t hit the mark for an eating disorder? It sounds stupid to say because the reality is I’m binge eating and purging (quite excessively these past few weeks) but my mind is like naaaaah you’re a big girl (I am obese truthfully), you don’t calorie count, you eat whatever you want, you don’t restrict what you eat so therefore you don’t have an ED. I don’t know what to do does anyone else have this feeling?

To clarify, my BP cycle is not consistent i could eat fine for a whole week with no purging but then one meal and the feeling of being overfilled will trigger a couple days worth of eating huge meals and throwing up when I’m bloated and stuffed. And it’s worse because I’m very self aware so I’m completely conscious of the choices I’m making but it’s like I don’t care at all during, but afterwards the guilt and shame are so big I question everything in my life. The guilt and shame also just exacerbates the episode itself so idk, does anyone have any similar experiences? I was just hoping to know that I’m not alone.