I am currently underweight and am slowly gaining weight to reach a healthy weight. Everyone in my life wants me to get to a healthy weight. I have a medical condition that gets better with weight gain. I know I should gain weight and I agree with that. Yet despite this, I feel bad when the number in the scale goes up. I don't want to reach a healthy weight.

Something that's very common for me is to not have an appetite despite being hungry. Like I'll have hunger pans but the idea of eating or tasting things makes me feel sick. I mention this because I'm currently experiencing that in spades right now (possibly aided by a gastrointestinal condition I have acting up). I haven't eaten at all today because even drinking things make me feel nauseous. And I'm hoping I don't eat today or tomorrow. I have salt pills and electrolyte drinks which is the staple of fasting so I should hopefully be fine. But I know this is a problem.

I don't know what I'm looking for. I guess I just wanted to put this out there. Thank you anyone who reads this. I hope you have an amazing day.