I studied Education, I like children and I’m not exactly scared of getting pregnant. But I’m scared of being a parent. The role itself and the responsibilities that come with it. I have a scattered brain, I’m not responsible at all and I’m lazy. And I’m 28, which means it’s probably not an “underdeveloped prefrontal cortex, it will get better as you age” issue, it’s just who I am. I’m not sure I could ever be a parent and I’m scared my child would have a shitty life. Maybe that explains why I’m always getting involved with SJ men; I feel like they have the control I lack then I feel secure and if pregnancy happens, I know they will figure things out. Anyone else? I wish I had more control over my own life. I feel like a child and if I become a parent, it will be like a child looking after another child lol.